There are times I just want someone to take care of me. Most of the girls in my class do have that someone and hearing them talk about it, makes my heart jump. It makes me happy, longing for that someone. But that is it, a fantasy. I am focused on this ridiculous dream. It is just an idea. Right now that’s really all it is, a vision, a craving, a longing, an idea. That’s all it ever will be.
Summer in France couldn’t be more beautiful.
Every time I look at him, I remember. He has a girlfriend. But then, after a while I am glad that he is committed to someone, because he deserves someone as amazing and caring as him. Even if he wasn’t in a relationship, I would be to shy to even ask him out and right now I don’t allow myself to have a boyfriend, it would be too much of a distraction and too much work. I just don’t have the energy to put into a relationship right now.
School has started again. I’m sort of excited for the next nine months, but then again, i’m not. Nope, i’m not looking forward to whats happening in seven to eight months. Please, don’t make me write my History and Chemistry exams on the same day. Why did you do this ibo? I don’t like my exam schedule. Nope.
I apologize, I haven’t posted anything in about ten days, which is a very long time. I thought I’ll write something up today, because a lot happened the last one and a half weeks. But I don’t know how to write it down, so here it goes.. I don’t think I have ever spent so much time in Berlin, the city. I have seen so much of Berlin that I think I would not have seen if two very good friends from England wouldn’t have come here to visit me and my sister. So, guys, thank you for helping me get over my laziness and fear of social interaction, because Berlin is worth it.